still

Waiting. It isnt really that hard to understand. Its simple. But hard to do.

Ive been here for so long. Waiting for something to happen.

Its like standing in a really long line just to buy your favorite ice cream. Youll endure sore feet, people pushing… but is it really worth it at the end? Is the taste of the ice cream worthwhile? Is it enough to equalize your hard work?

But what if… when you reached the salesman, and he says, sorry! Sold out. Try again tomorrow. What will you feel?

What will I feel?

What if all this waiting amount to nothing?

I hate this. Love is full of what-ifs… uncertainty, questions…

Changing the subject (but still, the topic is he). My friends say that the two of us looks like were together. And when I say no, they say, MU (mutual understanding daw ibig sabihin) noh?!. Weird people with their assumptions.

That brought up another question. Does he like me, too?

I dont think so. Ewan. Im not so sure on what to think!

All this thinking makes my head hurts. Im still very confused. But one thing is for sure, Im that close to giving up. I dont like this feeling anymore. I cant even bare seeing him. Makes me want to vomit. He he he!

What to do… what to do. What should I do?